The cost of putting your trust in HIM

"Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, And whose hope is in the Lord." Jeremiah 17:7

 My husband and I weren't planning on kids for at least another two years. I was at the end of my Master's program and looking forward to finally starting a career in teaching. Even though the job market was slim I had faith that God wouldn't have brought me this far and not have a job waiting for me.

We spent the majority of our marriage living a life we wouldn't have chose if you paid us. In fact, after ten years together it was finally beginning to feel like we were an actual married couple. We had bought our first home eight months earlier, work was extremely busy for my husband, and we looked forward to a vacation together to celebrate the completion of school and the start of a new career.

In an instant God changed everything...

After a trip to the 99 cent store, I walked over to my husband and asked him to join me in the restroom.
"What does that mean?" he looked at me, knowing the answer but awaiting confirmation.
"It means I'm pregnant." Tears welled up in my eyes. I didn't know what to think. How could this happen? What happens now? What does this all mean? My mind raced, my heart beat faster, and a queasiness began to build up within.
 He hugged me, smiled, and hugged me again. Instead of questions he seemed to already know the answer.  Those 99 cents we spent that day changed my life forever.

Maybe it's years of uncertainty or just one moment but often we find ourselves wondering what God is doing with our lives. We can't help but ask those questions that reveal how faithless we really are. Looking back on that moment for us I felt like God had a sense of humor. I pictured Him up in Heaven nodding His head as if to say, "My silly little children, don't you know by now that it is I who do the planning around here?" I may not know what God had in store when He sent us our little miracle. He defied all odds that she would ever come into existence. He proved to us that He knows better.

I'm still getting used to being a mom. It's a role only God can prepare you for. Every day that I look at those beautiful eyes God created, I'm reminded of His love. I'm reminded that the blessings flow because we trust in Him. We may not always understand the why or know the how but God promises to never leave us. As humans we have this false sense of security that as long as thing are going along smoothly it must mean we've got a good handle of things. I know that's where we were back then.

Becoming a parent has taught me to remember that I am first, a child,a child of God... Children look to their parents for answers, for advice, and for comfort. When we have the attitude of a child God can use us in ways we never thought possible. When we have the attitude of a child we can begin to experience the blessings of God and become blessed MEN [and women] who trust in the Lord.